Into My Mind

I know every parent has these moments, but I GIVE UP! I don't want to be a parent anymore, I don't want to be responsible anymore, I don't want to be accountable. Damn it, I want to be a kid again or something I never was; an young adult with no spouse or child.

I love my family, I love my husband more than any other person on this planet and my love for my children can't even compare to that. BUT... I want a break. I want a child that's not going to throw tantrums at every turn of the head. I want a child that wants to learn and progress and doesn't look me straight in the face and say "I'm stupid and want to stay in first grade." These are battle I can't handle. I don't know how to make my child love to learn, much less like it. I don't know how to inspire the desire to read. Right now, reading is a forced practice completed every night. I don't know what to do.

Okay, that was my outburst. Now, it's back to being a parent and enforcing the ever dreaded bedtime. Thanks for listening.