Into My Mind

My kids are now about 2 hours into their drive to Indiana with Grandma Walker and you'd think I'd be thrilled. No husband OR children for a week, but the first thing I did this morning was call Jason and say that I was about to cry. Could you imagine going from being a pretty much single parent for the past four months, to having your children gone too? I think they're the only things keeping me sane while their father is gone. Well, maybe not sane but busy.

I have enough to keep me busy though while they're gone, both work and home related. I've promised to have all the toys unpacked and the basement set-up for them when they get home. If you've never seen how many toys my children have, then you just wouldn't understand what a commitment I made. I've also decided to try and host a small get together while they're gone. That way I didn't have to worry about bedtimes or them not liking the food I made and well hell I can drink now, but I'm totally worried. I'm scared to find out that I'm the kid in the class no one wants to play with. How grade school is that? What's funny though is that those type of insecurities just never go away.

I better sign off for now and do something productive. Wish me luck while I'm on my own - YUCK - oh I mean - YEAH!