Into My Mind

So, I bought this "Dance It Off" dvd this weekend from Walmart. The purchase was mainly because since having three kids and 4 years of a desk job, my mid section is not what I want it to be. I'm getting the desk chair spreading ass and it's driving me crazy. I have two problems though...

1) The dvd is kicking my ass and I have to find the motivation to stick with it long enough to actually see results

and

2) I have no real support system at home. It's not that I don't have a support system, I just don't have the one I want. Oh, problem #3 is I don't know what kind of support system I want.

I have decided to compare my "reshaping" effort to that of Jason trying to quit smoking. I can encourage and support him in all my little ways possible, like keeping cigarettes away from him per his request. But ultimately it's not my deal. He has to choose to put forth the effort for change and so do I. I think I'm sitting back waiting for someone (cough Jason cough) to push me into doing it. Making sure to ask 100 times a day, "did you do your workout?"

Actually, you know what I need? I need Shelli. I need her to come home so we can go to the gym together again. See, it's all her fault. Damn it, I did it again. I'm blaming someone else and not accepting the blame. I suck, there are just so many things to work on. Maybe I'll just buy a girdle.